ok it's Saturday night and I'm gonna write a note

Yea, tell me how geeky I am, but I would never stop writing

Oh this feeling 

There's no words to describe how great it feels like 

When I hold a flowing pen on my hand 

or having a full familiar keyboard right at my fingers 

my mind turns back to life 

and my soul would never be clearer than ever...

Sorry, if you don't write 

then you simply don't know a shit I'm talking 'bout

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Listening to John Mayer and dying for his voice. Nah, you don't need a look to be a 'bad boy'. Or I mean, it's also good to have one though. Imagine guys with voice! How hot they could be? 

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You think I just love myself? 

But wait for a moment

The only one I've have with me all these hard time is this little girl 

with a shaking heart and a braving mind

So what do you expect darling?

I don't need the one to 'cry on his shoulder' 

I don't need the one to 'depend on' 

This life is mine 

Mum and Dad and my amazing family have given me everything they've got

Standing upright and live my life 

not just for a living 

Enjoyment and love 

that's what I have and share 

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Thinking back of things happened in Norway last week and being hunted by disturbing emotions. I don't get it still. It's just so wrong. Ain't it just another nightmare? Couldn't stop crying while reading blog of a survival. Don't know what to say. Don't know what to think. There's so much going on inside this head. Please rest in peace. And about that mass killer, I really don't know. For me, everything happens for a reason. He couldn't jump out of nowhere. Something or someone made him be like that. I don't know. Just so confused, so messed up. Please be nice, smile for good and cry for bad. It hurts enough. We need more good deeds here on Earth.

I don't really get it when people complain how lonely they've always feel like. Well, it doesn't sound familliar to me that much. Or maybe, I got used to it. I got used to being alone, being fine and right with myself. Everything is so simply complicated. Life is cruel. Human is small. And if you can't live by your own, you die. Simple as that. I don't lay on anything. I don't wait for things to happen. I don't desperately need another half. And I don't just cry when I fail. You know what? No one's gonna care (about me). None. I mean it. And for those who might care, I'd never waste their time caring about my business. I've always pushed myself so hard to act like a grown up girl, not a 'green-house-kinda-child', not a 'you-can-have-eveything-you-want princess'. We all have choices and I've chosen to be bold. 

Some wonder why my facebook seems to be so blank. They can't check my display pictures. They can't find where I am. They don't know what I'm doing. They won't feel a full sense of me. But that's what it's like. I don't have to publish my life to the world included those don't want to know or those I don't want them to know. And for the last thing, if someone want to know me, they'll know eventually. That's good you know. It takes time to go from soul to soul darling.

Oh and don't worry. This heart doesn't cry that much. Never for herself. But for Grandma, for Mum, for Dad, for Auntie, for Grandpa, for the past, for the poor and for the world, maybe.

an almost full time working Sunday and that's how it looks like outside my window

project no.2, it was fun and cool but not for one. whatever, i'm not gonna fuck with those not like-minded!

Firstly, a big thank to you guys who did modelling for my project. I wouldn't make it in just 1 night w/o your help, so yea, thanks again and again! ♥

I won't say this is my best cause the process of making this (included coming up with the idea) took me not yet 1 day! Nah, it's not that I was lazy. I was working freaking hard over the last weekend and almost finished my final pieces. Then after the talk with Oz on Mon, I realized its problem, so I had to 'rethink' and tried to make something out of nothing. But I guess I won. I won myself.

So, this project is an Anti-Fastfood Campaign's ad. It's supposed to be big posters hanged at the bus stop or some public places like that. Obviously, the person who's gonna pay for it to be shown is some kind of Heathy Food Organization.

The whole idea is about let's eat slowly, live slowly and enjoy your life.

Well, I mean, keep your mouth shut, breath fresh air, watch flying clouds and listen to the wind. Yea, basically, be slow and don't fuck with those who like to be fast.

working on new project, waiting for contact lenses and being a little bit lost but loving at the same time

Photos were taken on Photography Day with Russell. And yes, the camera was running out of battery and so not much good stuffs have been done, but anw I enjoyed it. 

The 5th week has just passed and things have been good so far. Project with Oz is on the way, even thou I haven't done anything significant but gonna start soon. Printmaking is kinda cool but I would love to do screenprinting as well. But yea, something new like hard ground etching and monoprint is fun to try! And Tom was absolutely helpful. Yesterday with Poppy is just 'heaven'. She's made me enjoy drawing! How could it be possible? (Ok, I admit it wasn't the first time I enjoy drawing but it's kinda rare ya know?) 

Probably, start working on my project now. And if specsavers don't ring me until tmr morning, I'll have to walk there and ask for my contact lenses. So 'craving' for that. 

Btw, I've been so lazy lately for not updating any photos and notes. I need to catch up my blog and people from now on!

Oh, one more thing, I'm so in love with The Kooks and Kings of Convenience.

oh haven't you heard of Bold Fruities? we're just effing cool and if you don't know us, it's just such a shame!

For me, it's like the first real project in this class. I've been feeling kinda free (thank Oz for his supportive mind) while working with the brief. 

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Basically, this ad I made is for eveyone of us. Everyone is different/unique and so we all have problems at the same time. Some look like they're perfect but they're sure not. Some look alike but they're so different. Some are just like any of us but aren't being treated right.

But, so what? We just have to ignore the world, stay still for who we really are, live up to our dreams and BE BOLD.

And I love the process as well. All of my thoughts and how they've been changing a lot and cutting the fruit, setting the light and yes, writing (mini) poems!

That was fun really.

ain't Friday the second best day of a week so far? just one spot below freaking crazy Saturday!

Photos taken on Friday. Went to central London with the rest of the class. Gonna go back there soon. Wanna explore more and more, even though I still think Kingston is the best place to live ever. Have been partying kinda hard these days. Enjoyed Lady night on Thu, Drinking night on Fri and Clubbing night on Sat. Lol. Looking forward to another busy week with inspiring works and another lovely weekend coming soon!