gloomy day. my cardigan collection. lyla in front of pentax. my soul's washed kinda clean...

Photos taken by me. Lyla as my model. Pentax K200D + lens Sigma 18-50mm f3.5-5.6. Melbourne. October 2010

when you think you've known everything bout a person, sorry you know shit about me

If you ever look at just one photo I've taken

If you ever see just one graphic work I've done

If you ever read just one story I've written

If you ever listen to any poems I've typed

But you've never. never. ever. done this for me.

I know when I do something good, it's my responsibility to be good

I'm not asking for compliments,

but at least I wish you would ever know me better, just a little bit better,

dad and mum

...

Many things to say but hey I just can't make them into words

in front of you guys

Once my lips start the conversation,

my eyes are full of tears already

What can I do now?

Tell me,

when will we know each other just a little bit better?

just a little bit,

dad and mum?

...

real real. fake fake. what's the point? i know u're not authentic and it's just that, darl!

Tik tok, tik tok,

nor I nor ya care bout the world

think of ourselves as the only existence

we all will die

if not so soon then a little bit later on

u never know what goes right

and what would be damn wrong

tik tok, tik tok

chop chop

epic failure is here or there.

I actually don't even want to write. Just suddenly feel like dropping some lines on my blog. Get sick of them. Why do you call them friends? Oh Lord, they're just craps. Hypocrites. The 'you need me but I wouldn't need you' type of friends yay? Aww, so disappointed. I've always known you're no good, but trying so hard to convince myself that you guys are better than just that. Hey, I'm wrong, absolutely wrong. Guess what. I just want to say, BYE! Better have some 'hi-bye' friends so at least I don't have to believe and try to believe how uhmazing you can be as a friend, a real one!

late/latte breakfast and days and noons and nights in melbourne left behind

Start up/wake up on my messy bed Late breakfast as a Magnum Weather checking through balcony And yea, quickly I'm on my way out...

Vday with blue water, fishes, whiskey and extremely headache. effing sick!

Taken on Valentine Day. Nah, not like ya thinking, I wasn't with my charming prince to a gorgeous aquarium in town. I was just with my big sister taking my cousin to a not-so-great place far away from the centre. By the way, it wasn't bad at all. I had fun with them. The only worst thing is that I got drunk that day while having too much fun/drink on the dancefloor with some of my friends and so-not friends, and ended up getting some of the ugliest photos ever of life. Or at least, I hope those will be the ugliest ever already. What's gone is gone anyway.

if life is such an easy thing, none of us had to think of suicide and such...

You think life's been so easy and lovely to me, but what do you really know?...

Thousands of things need to be done. Thousands of issues need to be solved. Thousands of shits have come out of nowhere.

Basically, I'm heading for my 'quite-a-long-trip' coming up very soon. I might start with purchasing a new camera and a better lens for portrait. Thinking of selling my old friend Pentax but might not be able to. He has been with me for a while and it just makes thing harder.

A visa card. So I can easily deal with buying online, airlines ticket, shipping shoes and blah blah a long long list. Yea, I've turned 18 and I've never owned a visa card by my own. It sounds stupid, I know. It should help when I travel overseas as well.

Going to a tour agency. They may help better than just the internet. Anyway, it wouldn't be too much fun if I travel all alone, so maybe I should have some fun with a real tour and people. Make some friends at first, why not?? Central Vietnam, Laos, Cambodia, Thailand. Then explore Saigon for my own. Long time I haven't been back there, it must have changed a lot and that's gonna be fantastic. Oh yea and first of all, coming to Vung Tau and spend few days with my lovely cousin before she's taking the plane back to Melbourne. Then Singapore and Malaysia (KL and Melaka?). Just skipping through some info about Singapore and already believe that's gonna be so exciting yay!

Waiting for school reply. Please quickly send me CAS so I can work on my visa and please tell me that my course is Graphic Design and just that, not anything else. Oh I'm not gonna stand for whatever else, like seriously! Please God! I know you can hear me. Love ya!

Obedience is that you accept things life brings to you, but calmly understand those trouble and make your own decision.

when I traveled around town all alone with my hair tied up, glasses on and shorts in winter

These are just a few photos I took during my long holiday, spending most in my hometown back in Vietnam. It's such a feeling when you really can see your oldies getting something new and different. Life's hourglass, such a song. Things change and we change even more. I'm trying not to complain about how things have turned to be so different cause I know I've got a new me too.

belonging and any other shit!..

Just another slogan/statement from and for myself. Sitting inside my room without any natural lighting, feeling a bit gloomy and shitty. Anyway, getting better soon. All the application things and troublesome craziness will get better, eventually. Just thinking I'm gonna get my own a blog. Well, I mean, real blog, with words and photos and whatever I might be able to produce next. Who knows? Some illustrations? Personal style or what? Eff, whatever. We're so done of talking about plans and future, but again who doesn't do day-dreaming? Luv luv. Plenty of fun comin' up!