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sweet Saturday night with Bong sissy, milk tea and special beef soup

It's a lie when I say I don't trust anyone
The fact is I don't dare to put my trust on anyone.
It's a lie when I say I don't love nobody
Simply that I'm scared of falling in love with somebody.


...


no trust, no hurt
no love, no pain
isn't it true? 


...

Typography Project: Set Solid in Georgia

half past 1 in the morning and i hate this shit

I don't miss anything about home

apart from family and food

huhu

Sitting here at half past 1 in the morning

doing nothing

supposed to work hard and finish weekend tasks hours ago

but sitting and listening to music still

aww

lazy me

I think I need some motivation

Hmm

just wanna bring my camera along

and capture life

so every breath I take

Just wanna fall in love

be happy

and feel secure

Just wanna try my best

and see how far I could go

then one day I could make myself

and someone else be proud of me

I'm not writing poem

This is just random shit

I just hate and love the moment right now right here

Indecisive piece of shit

Oh yeah I am the one

...

fucking unattractive I think

my fortune cookie said I am deeply attached to my family and home?

Nice Saturday. With Tram-Phuong Nguyen and Alice. Really nice food throughout the day too haha. And my new hair as well. Oh I'm just in love with it.

another bit of what i see in the world

for prospective sweetheart.

Oh so darling, 

if you want to join me here 

now and then 

we'll either run away 

or face this cruel world together 

with my hand in yours 

and eyes smiling at each other 

We won't just go for a walk 

and make great big plans,

but take the train to nowhere

and talk shit about life

I'll make rules for you

and allow you to make rules for me

so we could break them all properly 

- You can't kiss me in the public

- Ok

[on the street]

- No. Not here. The rule is that you're not allowed to kiss me in the public!

- It's not public. Look at the sign! 

[sign: Private Parking]

*umm* 

I'll cook for you 

and you'll clean the dishes

ain't it a perfect deal?

Or if you want it the other way

I wouldn't mind 

You won't let me down

and so won't I

Rules are to be broken

but hearts are not

don't u agree with me on this,

my friend?  

And not for last,

we'll go to bed when it's late 

and I'll feel safe again

it's a Sunday. i was bored so i decided to cook loads of chicken.

So Thai red curry chicken and fried chicken with fish sauce. I was not hungry. I cooked just because I was bored. And I forgot to buy rice so I had to eat curry chicken with burger bun! Weird but yeah it wasn't bad at all. I just don't like curry. Don't even know why I bought the sauce and made it. Anyway, worth to try. 

me, myself and my short escape from this fucked up matters and people

So yeah. I slept really early on Friday cause I was so exhausted after the long crit. To be honest, I was almost passing out during the crit. That was too much for me. Staring at all the images and listening to all kind of opinions and thinking in my own in a tiny room with loads of people was such an experience. So I came home straight away and basically went to bed around 7 ish. It was lovely except that people tended to disturb me still. Every single night. Yeah, go fuck yourselves, I truly mean it. I need to sleep some more, write some more and work some more too. 

Woke up at 9 or 10 in the morning which was quite early for a Saturday. Then I decided to give myself a gift. Well, by saying that, I mean I gave myself the chance to go to London and go to somewhere I don't know and forget about everything else. And I did. Love it. Randomly, Leicester Square was chosen to be the destination. Not really, more like the starting point. Then I started walking around without knowing where the hell I was about to go to. It was lovely. I got lost for a while and it was so me. Vulnerable but smart and tough too. I found my way back, of course. And went to Magma for the third time. Found this quote: "The simpler your idea and your presentation of it is, the more likely you're going to success", well, or at least something sounds like that. That quote points right at me! I need to learn to shut up. I'm too nervous and insecure all the time and so I've always tried to hard to show that I am not. Showing your weakness is not weak, it's really brave. Remember that, Jazzy! 

They say graphic design is about communication in a visual way. So now I'm not really 

sure if I've chosen the right course or not. Cause I'm not good at either speaking or making visual things (yet). I love writing. That's like the only way I could use to express myself and my ideas and such. And not to mention that everyone keeps saying that if you can't explain your idea in one sentence then it's rubbish. Obviously, I can't do that. I'm such a wordy person. Typing and writing words out is just the most simple way for me to communicate. Well, maybe I'm just 'communicating' with myself then since (almost) no one is reading this blog. But anyway, I'm having trouble here. I just want to go around, take photos and write everything down. How does it sound like? Fuck graphics! 

Also found the best Korean restaurant in London. They've got the best kimchi and beef rib soup I've ever tasted. And well, having the best meal all alone is lovely. Sometimes, you don't need people, you know. Friends are sweet but if they can't value you, fuck them! 

Tomorrow is gonna be a long day for me. Gotta go to town, get a new sketchbook, French textbook, a lunch box, a set of cutlery and work on my weekend tasks. And also have to plan for next week. Just to remind myself, email Lucy and continue taking photos for campus lookbook on Monday, check out volunteer oppotunities and sign up for it, revise French lessons, Sports Card plus dance plus yoga and bank letter! That's all for now to Monday. Oh and one more thing. Smile up! And please don't fake it. Just smile because you want to smile. You know that life will smile back at you (eventually) if you smile at it.

What's done is done so please don't suffer too much. Stay strong and appreciate the time you have.